One

laazim tha ki dekho mera rasta koee din aur
tanha gaye kyoN ? ab raho tanha koee din aur

[ laazim = necessary, tanha = alone ]

I was on a road today. The same road I travel every day. Yet it wasn't anything like every day. Today, I was alone. I didn't have other riders riding the road alongwith me. They had taken turns earlier, and must be travelling, even now, on their own roads, to their own destinations. I don't know if the road I've taken is the right one to my destination, since I don't have anyone to ask for directions.

It's a lonely road, and nothing seems to be in vicinity. Yet, today, I saw the Sun set where my road ended. I want to turn back, but I also want to feel the Sun setting at my feet. Unfortunately, I can't do both simultaneously.

I know I'll never come back to finish once I go back. But if I go for the brumous reward, I'll have to spend the journey alone. If I die in the way, I'll die in wilderness, and my goal shall lay unachieved.

But isn't me being on this road, in the middle of nowhere, and watching the bright yellows and oranges of the Sun mix with the greys of my road; a coincidence setup for a purpose? If it is, then isn't it a greater sin, to not futlfil the purpose I have been chosen to follow; to turn away from my 'destiny', to give up on perhaps what could be my raison d'etre, for other relatively meek pleasures?

What if it isn't? What if coincidences hold no meaning, and what if there is no such thing as 'purpose of being', but only an 'consequence of being'? Then, perhaps, this exercise shall lead me a step closer to finding my consequence.

But let's take a few liberties, after all, this is all hypothesis. Let's consider the case when the hypothesis holds. So, if what I feel is true, then the universe shall hence conspire, to the aid of the seeker of destiny; for it is the Universe itself who setup the signs; and the Sun shall hence settle, one day, at the feet of the conqueror.

I believe it is our fate to be here. It is our destiny. I believe this night holds, for each and every one of us, the very meaning of our lives. This is a war and we are soldiers. What if tomorrow the war could be over? Isn't that worth fighting for? Isn't that worth dying for?

- Morpheus, The Matrix